"Happiness is always a by-product. It is probably a matter of temperament, and for anything I know it may be glandular. But it is not something that can be demanded from life, and if you are not happy you had better stop worrying about it and see what treasures you can pluck from your own brand of unhappiness."
Robertson Davies.

Friday, October 26, 2007


I am sitting here in my cube at work and I have to wonder if everyone gets the same itchy teeth, or painful skin feeling I get as the next workday approaches.

I'm sure that I'm in the minority here, but this condition I have has been with me since I was very young.
As my mother and I would approach the school building I would get a little flush and dizzy, just like when I pull up to work.

This feeling will strike from time to time, gladly it has stopped causing me to "lose" or leave my jobs as it once did, but still it's distracting.

Its like clinical laziness, I'll call it what it is...Deep down I am lazy.
It seems I always have been.
It presents in many ways but consistently it comes on like sickness, not anxiety...it escalates to anxiety.

Luckily I have the next 2 days off, maybe I will try to throw a late party for my birthday (which was this past wednesday).
I really do wish I could shake this feeling.
yeah here at work I occasionally have the time to whine.

More later as I plan to stay up the better part of tonite.

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